in case you were wondering...

We attended the kick-off meeting for the homeschool association we joined this week. It was a bit intimidating. I felt like I snuck into a group of super moms, and they somehow didn't notice I don't fit in. It's not that they presented themselves this way on purpose. It's my own insecurities. When a mom stands up and says, "I have 23 kids ranging in ages from 30 to 6 months, and if I can do this, so can you!" (OK, I exaggerated-a little) It reminds me a bit of when Gracy was in kindergarten and I agreed to be her girl scout leader. At the training all the moms showed up with blond bobs, prada bags, and french manicures. Completely different group here-yet I feel the same panicky insecurity. I guess I fear not fitting in more than I thought. Ouch.

Then I remember what the Word says, "For I am the Lord, your God, who takes hold of your right hand and says to you, Do not fear, I will help you" (Isaiah 41:13). That's right! How could I forget?! This isn't about me! Nothing ever is. When I forget my focus - God - I start to bobble and wobble. Of course I feel insecure-that I'm not as good as the super moms. I'm not! They are depending on God, they're not all that great by themselves either!

"My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness" (2 Cor 12:9) How exciting is that! The way I see it, I'm full of weaknesses, so that gives God a TON of room for His perfect power in my life. I don't need to compare myself with others. I only need to make sure I remain in Him, He will guide me the rest of the way. He will light my path, be my shepherd, provide me with a peace that passes all understanding.

What an awesome God!